Suicide

I don’t have the courage to do it now
But one day I will
All this pain will end

Once I am dead
There will be no hate
Only love
Only reconciliation

I fear the pain of death
But I know there can be
No greater pain than life
I will pay back what I owe

With suicide.

Would you feel sad when I am gone?
Would you feel guilty?
Would you start caring
Would you start loving me

With suicide?

Do you care that I care?
Do you hear the sounds of my pain
Echoing through the walls
Of my asphyxiated lungs

Is this death I ask?
Is this suicide?

I lay and ponder
As morning ends and night falls
How can I enter
Your heart?

It is only
With suicide.

One-off Submission by Claudia Lee